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October 2024

• As the (Brain)...

  ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ꒰ঌ Currently... ໒꒱ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ Mood: Thoughtful Weather: Sunny Current Song on Repeat: "That's So True" by Gracie Abrams Reading: Mozart : the reign of love by Jan Swafford Watching: Gilmore Girls Season 3 Playing: Life is Strange: Double Exposure Drinking: Alani Nu Juicy Peach Energy Drink Perfume: Yara (Pink Bottle) by Lattafa One Thing I'm Grateful For: Vitamin D Fruit Gummies It's been a minute since I've written a "life update" style post for my blog, but it has been for good reason. As I previously mentioned in the introduction of my last media roundup, finals for the spring semester came around quite quickly, and then I immediately started travelling internationally. I visited Dubai and Abu Dahbi in the UAE, various cities in India, and then Singapore. I don't really plan to expand upon my experiences abroad right now in this post itself, because I'd like to dedicate seperate blog posts about each of the places I've visited where I can talk about them in detail, so please...

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August 2024

• Media Roundup: Q2...

  Hello Krish nation! It's been a while since I last wrote in my blog, and I'm back with another media roundup. Pretty soon after I wrote my last blog post, finals season kicked in, I immediately started traveling internationally to visit extended family, and then my health declined and started getting treated for it so I didn't have any time or energy to write any blog posts. I have to admit, it feels good to work on things for my site again after taking a bit of a break! ♡ Not spoiler free! ʚɞ ⁺˖ ⸝⸝ Books, Graphic Novels, Manga and Webcomics Media that I read this quarter either physically or through audiobooks. ↬ Lil' Dee in Home Free created by Vee Briat: The artstyle remids me a lot of the black and white comics I used to read in the newspaper as a child, so I was visually drawn in immediately. A short but sweet comic about a little creature learning to stand up for itself, and protecting itself the way it protects its loved one. ↬ Chainsaw Man Chapters 1-30 created by Tatsuki...

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May 2024

• Media Roundup: Q1...

  Throughout my time on the independent web, I've seen a lot of people have pages dedicated to things they've read, songs they've listened to, or games they've played. I've always wanted to do something similar on my site at some capacity, but my perfection kept getting to me. How do I categorize the media that I consume? Do I create a seperate layout for each page? What if I read something like an online article that I have thoughts about that I wish to share, where does it go because it's technically not a book? Would I have to create a seperate page and layout for articles I read too now? I spend a lot of time watching video essays. How do I share those? I'm not sure why I didn't realize I could create blog posts inspired by a media diary post from a blog that I follow to serve as periodical media logs earlier! The form of media that I'm into very much depends on the time of year and what other things I have going on in my life at the time; for example I've been in college this...

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March 2024

• Do I Contradict...

  ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ꒰ঌ Currently... ໒꒱ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ Mood: Accepting Weather: Mostly Cloudy Listening to: "So American" by Olivia Rodrigo Reading: The Premed Playbook Guide to the Medical School Personal Statement: Everything You Need to Successfully Apply by Ryan Gray Watching: The Legend of Korra: Book Two: Spirits Playing: Nothing (...Pokemon Go? Neopets?) Drinking: Iced Caramel Latte Perfume: Sweet Tooth by Sabrina Carpenter layered with Midnight Amber Glow by Bath and Body Works (Title references this poem.) Feeling yourself grow up and change is so strange. Whenever I notice something different about myself, even if it's just the accumulation of a bunch of small changes finally making a bigger difference in my life, it feels so alien. When I become aware of a "shift" in who I am and what I value in life, my immediate feeling is discomfort. It really sucks that this is my gut reaction because more often than not, the changes that I notice are positive and serve to enrich my life. I think I just...

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• Applying to Med...

  ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ꒰ঌ Currently... ໒꒱ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ Mood: Anxious, but Determined Weather: Partly Cloudy Listening to: Can’t Catch Me Now by Olivia Rodrigo (+ her album GUTS) Reading: My Figure Zine by Ophazines (You should read it too here) (๑>؂•̀๑) Watching: The Anti-Trans Propaganda Film Made by a Cult Video Essay by Jessi Gender Playing: That's Not My Neighbor Drinking: Iced Lavender Matcha Latte Perfume: Fireside Flurries by Bath and Body Works I generally look forward to writing blog posts as a form of mindfulness, but for whatever reason I've really been struggling with articulating my feelings this time around. I will be attempting to apply to medical schools again within the next few months, and if I'm being completely honest, thinking about it makes my insides turn inside out. I was supposed to apply last year and only take one gap year, but midway through the process and application cycle, in lack of better words, I fell apart. I try not to be too hard on myself about it, I was in a really...

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February 2024

• Recharging (Like...

  ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ꒰ঌ Currently... ໒꒱ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ Mood: Tense Weather: Windy Listening to: Traumatic Livelihood by Jazmin Bean (+ her entire debut album) Reading: The Premed Playbook Guide to the Medical School Personal Statement: Everything You Need to Successfully Apply by Ryan Gray Watching: My anatomy lectures.... Playing: A Short Hike Drinking: Iced Vanilla and Brown Sugar Latte Perfume: "Fireside Flurries" by Bath and Body Works It feels like there's something in the air— a lot of the people around me both in person and online have either been talking about or actively have been withdrawing from socializing as of lately. I can't even be mad, because I've been feeling similarly! I deactivated my Neocities profile for like two days, but as of posting this have reactivated it. I don't want people to feel like they can't keep up with my site updates if they don't use RSS. I have just accepted that I won't have the energy to actively check my Neocities feed for a while, even if I plan on continuing...

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• More Than...

  ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ꒰ঌ Currently... ໒꒱ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ Mood: Determined Weather: Sunny with High Winds Listening to: 777 Pt. 1 by Latto Reading: The Premed Playbook Guide to the Medical School Personal Statement: Everything You Need to Successfully Apply by Ryan Gray Watching: Fresh Pretty Cure! Playing: Thirsty Suitors Drinking: Iced Lavender Matcha Latte Perfume: "Heavenly" by Victoria Secret It's been abnormally warm where I live for February! It's felt really strange. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't enjoy the warm weather and all the sun we've been getting, but I haven't been able to shake off the feeling that it doesn't feel right. There hasn't been solid snow on the ground other than once that quickly melted away back in January, meanwhile Winter Storm Lorraine is absolutely dumping snow in the northeast! Don't get me wrong, I'm not someone who loves winter. I genuinely don't care for the snow or cold, but I'm also someone who thrives on routine and repetition. It feels wrong for it not to be...

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January 2024

• More Happy than Not

  ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ꒰ঌ Currently... ໒꒱ ⊹ ࣪ ˖ Mood: Peaceful Weather: Cloudy Listening to: Waiting Room by Sabrina Carpenter Reading: The Premed Playbook Guide to the Medical School Personal Statement: Everything You Need to Successfully Apply by Ryan Gray Watching: Yellowjackets Season 2 Playing: Cyberpunk 2099 Drinking: Warm English Breakfast Tea Perfume: "Into the Night" by Bath and Body Works Happy 2024! It's been a little over a year since I started existing on the personal web as "Sanguine Royal", (I believe I started December 23rd) and it's been a little strange to think about how much I've changed in the past year alone. When I wrote my first blog post, I was sad, lost and burnt out on life. I had spent the last 3.5 years of my life in a perpetual state of anxiety over my future and it was exhausting. I remember there were weeks where I wasn't able to brush my teeth, take a shower, or eat. That all feels very foreign to me now. These days I don't feel that way. I can't pinpoint it to an...

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